2009年4月16日星期四
soon enough, the exam has past two third, I didn't do well. Especially maths, how do I made so many stupid mistakes remains a mystery to myself, was i invaded by some kind of devil? Sure it is. This time the mark gonna be terribly horrible, it's not my standard at all, but is the standard of my mental spirit, too weak to go through tough time. other subjects also not very confident.Even liberal art subjects, because there's always someone who are much better than me.I was definitely mad and being moody, but what am I gonna do to change all this? Yes, heaven is finally where we belong ,and all the things on the ground will make you regret that you've spend so much energy on it as soon as you enter the paradise, where has only peace and happiness. But I'm not that far yet and I'm still a normal god-creature after all, I have all the shortcomings that other people have. And there's still so many years to go on the ground. So I really really couldn't fully comfortable to hand in my load to god. But life only gets hopeful when god's around.Dante said he felt that I had been alienated by some of the classmates, especially girls.(But I don't really care about that cause I don't really want to have anything to do with girls, they're trouble they're mess, in other hands none of them are up to my standard :))The reason why I was alienated was because I always be with him he presumed. I guess so but who cares man? I know the principle I know the rule ,simple and easy.Watch a lot of , envying their life style, we are all high school students, but take a look at their life: playing, girls, sports practising ,surfing,even goofing around. And look at the accomdation they lived in: what the hell! So luxurious and amazing. and look at poor Chinese high school students, totally live in hopelessness and bore, don't know how to socialise at all. Is that human ?I just wanted to ask.After school go and make passport, what the hell told I couldn't make there cause I wasn't the relative of public security worker, newmind, this is socialism and this is China, who want to give a damn to your suck passport! Vanished! Vanished! Vanished!The country lose its meaning of survive.It brings no good but harm to the world, to god's holy land.
That's all, can I just walk away ?
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2009年4月9日星期四
There's always a fantasy world deep inside everyone's heart, or a ownself universe, where their date, their prince charming, there dreams lies. I guess I've lost the most original pure affection, I has been isolated in this wicked world. I affirm I'm a trash if I keep on earning my living in such sinful, disgusting atmosphere. No one could ever survive. Cause what's the main different between human beings and animals? Conscience. And personally I will add religion. An indivudual without conscience or religion then what the hell character he or she is? What am I saying? Maybe just venting my anger. Alright, but what am I angrying for? I'm not foolish and I am not totally being deceived. It's just due to present situation I have to make some sacrifices and temporarily lose my conscience, as long as it is not causing serious consequences then it's OK to me. Make several great friends, a really true friend, which I have already found, what more could I ask for in the following 2 years? I suppose no and thanks god a lot. When do I become so extreme to wrote such a freaky composition?Today I saw a introduction reference about Singapore. I found Singapore a good place for consuming your money. It really costs a huge amount of money to enjoy the high class entertainment or relaxation. It amazed me but doesn't mean I didn't want to take it. Singapore means a lot to me, my best friend, my initiative aboard life, anyway it just means a lot. I will definitely go back more than once to see my native pals there. Which means I will definitely travel to there, but not now, maybe when I'm wealthy enough. Grab my family with me spend a whole month there or whatsoever. oh American chick, how sweet! But that's just saying.I'm going to take IEITS soon, it may not be that horrible as it seems to be. I'm not sure I'll perform but I won't be that worse I assume.Enthusiastically finished a impromptu essay. I felt quite released after this. So long didn't express my true feeling in English, it's like a swagman finally went back to where he belonged.WICKED WORLD. SICK, TIRING, UNREAL, PRETENDING,MEANINGLESS,HOPELESS,UNREASONABLE.I felt simple-minded means happiness sometimes.
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