My Worries
Recently I was busy looking for a High school to settle down and start my study as soon as possible.
Mum and I was dreaming of Affiliated High School of SCNU,which is almost a impossible option.We also submitted my application and some supporting documents but there is no feedback so far.Vice principal said leaders need a conference to make the final decision.But I didn’t put much expectation on it,even though I enthusiastically want to make it.
And applying this school recall some of my bad memories:I used to have a very good and close friend,we chatted together training sport together even help each others study.And now I still got his piece in my souvenir album.After graduation,we were still friends for a short time.But after 2 months vacation,he became another guy.Which I didn’t recognize:he didn’t reply my regard message;When I went back to my former school to attend “Art Festival”,I saw his again,I believe he saw me as well,but there was no reaction from him,and his indifferent glimpse broke my heart:what matter can totally ruined a section of such beautiful friendship?I sighed why friendship can be such unreliable?Maybe that’s not even a real friendship?But I treasure what we have had,because at least that was still a sweet memory.
Maybe that was exactly a misunderstanding,we just need to talk and declare the problems.If that’s true I will absolutely forgive him.I treasured every friendship I have ever had,I hope all of that are everlasting.
He is also in Affiliated high now.If I get into Affiliated high,there is a high chance that I will meet him,I hope at that moment,we are still friends.
And I recall some of my former schoolmates now in Affiliated high,some of them are not qualified from my view.But that’s fate,there is no absolute fair in this world.Maybe they are really not qualified,but they reach the lowest standard,I didn’t,so I don’t think I’m qualified to discuss about them also.I don’t feel well about those people,but what can I do to change all this?Make myself better.Because for the time being,I am facing an much more unfavorable situation than they do.So take care of myself first.
If I fail this application,I’ve got no much more choices left already.Either GuangYa High School or Affiliated High school Of Guangzhou University(This is also a affiliated high school but unlike the prior 1.A different of paradise and hell.)What school am I going to is not the most concern to me.Get into what school is not a big deal.But 2 factors really disturbing me:The time I spend on transportation and what kind of people am I get along with?What kind of people am I going to face everyday.That what I concern about.If the distance between school and home is too far then I can barely get enough sleep.What kind of teacher,what kind of coursebook,even what kind of course,I also don’t care that much.But classmates are different,they are the people I will spend most time with everyday.They are the people I need to talk with and share my feelings with.If they don’t have a good personalities,what am I going to deal with all this?Bad classmates is definitely unacceptable to me.
Get into Affiliated High is absolutely the best choice for me,see if god put his mercy on me.Even a big sum of money required I also not grudge.
Mentioning about god,I really feel ashamed after I read an essay about the Nordic races that settled in US.They only loyal to their religion、their god.They keep away from all the different kinds of temptations in this world.They refused to use electricity、refused to use car、machines、refused to be called up for military service、refused to serve jury.(Because they believe only god has the right to judge the justice.I agree this,but their opinions are too extreme:there are so many affairs in this world,big or small.Sometimes god really needs to use human’s hand to handle the small cases.Think about it?What will the world be if we need god to judge everything for us?I guess that why god created jury,god created everything for a reason.
But I believe the Nordic Americans,their foundation of their religions are definitely much more stable or than our modern people.I believe god doesn’t expect us to give up everything we have now,but we really need to spend more time for god.Honor god is the only reason why we are here,in this earth.
I also need to have a completely self-criticism:what I have done to repay god?None!A big big neo!Take some time from playing desktop、from watching TV or even reading books.Reading books seem to be a very solid reason to keep away from god.Without god,although I got so many knowledges,what for?Nothing.
When will I have an entirely change?I’m yearning.Or I really need someone to talk with.
Today I read a passage introduced a billionaire,also Chelsea FC’s boss:Arburamovic.(This is a wrong spelling but it doesn’t matter.)His properties and riches.Such as:How many yachtes he had;How many vehicles he owned;How many aeroplanes he drive.I really think that is too extravagant.He still got a Russian beautiful model girlfriend,of course I believe their affection is not base on real love but his money.
What I want?Let me make a list of them:(Sequence is randomly)
1、A luxurious condo.(A big section for my parents.)
2、A wild SUV
3、A satisfactory family,2 lovely sons and 2 cute daughters,as well as A sweet wife.
4、A constant offer for god.
5、Travel all over the world with my family.

That’s only the wish on my personal life.I will have another list on my career target.
Wow!That’s quite a long essay for me!Maybe it’s not a big deal to those English user,but it meant a lot for me!What a big challenges!I believe that how I improve!